semi-major Indian starlet speaks out

Rohit Khare (
Thu, 28 Aug 1997 13:40:03 -0400 (EDT)

Just so you know the celeb press over there is just as vapid, and the
shots are just as hot, see


Have you always been like this?

No, no, till my first year of college I was a very complex, insecure
person. I was fat and ugly. In school I was disgustingly obese. I used
to be the butt of ridicule and that made me withdraw into a shell. It
made me miserable, unsure of myself. I was far from confident.

How did it change?

Well, I had this major crush on a guy in college. He was one of my
brother's friends. One day he walked into the house, pulled my
pigtails and said motti. My world came crashing down. I swore to
myself that come what may, I'd have that man at my feet. And that was
the day I started losing weight.

Throughout school I've faced ridicule and been complexed about my
appearance. I almost turned into a nervous wreck. Peer pressure is
bad. Children can be really cruel. Specially if you're not like
everyone else.

I still remember the way children used to tease me. Fat people are
really lonely people. In school girls would be my friends but guys
would generally keep away. A lot of insecurity stems from there. But
if you have a strong base nothing can shake you.

When I came into the industry, I was still very complexed. I was very
broad shouldered, I remember, and not open to jokes. Because I was so
conscious of myself. In fact, sometimes when Salman would joke with
me, I would misunderstand him. So initially I started withdrawing into
a shell. This was misunderstood and everyone thought I was too
arrogant. It wasn't so, I was just insecure about myself. I wanted to
scream, 'I'm not like that.'

I'm a friendly person but I'm conscious if people may fun of me. Then
I went through this phase of this one particular heroine making fun of
me. Then being dropped out of movies and my war with a certain
co-star. I was majorly misunderstood. I went into a deeper
shell. However I handled it. I surfaced. I'm a survivor.